-sigh- sometimes i wonder if us 'artistes' are seriously blind
either that or dellusional
do we really see things differently to the rest of the world?
like today
i was at work...(wait X_O i still am..XD) and my boss's mums around 2day...and i'm supposed to be all PA like and get her tea and talk 2 her bla bla...and then i thought ...ok, im just sitting here, might aswell draw something...we had to do a portrait of an old lady during life drawing classes last night, so i thought id practice my portrait skills a bit XD neways the boss's mother was more than happy with sittin there while i drew her...and i swear to god...that was one of the best portraits id EVEER done like ever...i honestly thought i captured her really well- not just her face, but the things she was telling me about...i sort of etched it into her expression (hardship/depression etc) and i dnt know- i thought it was a really accurate depiction...
i must be lukin at it from a really odd angle tho cuz wen i showed it to her she laughed at it and ripped it into tiny pieces! 'god- this is horrible- u made me look so withered- and butch! like a man! hahahah!' ...i so badly wanted to say 'but aunty, thats wat u look like...' XD
i honestly thought it was a killer portrait tho- damn, i was soo pleased with myself...i dont know what made me think it was so much better than perhaps it really was...
ah well...*shrugs* i made it for her- guess its better to see it ripped up in ur face than come back the next day to find it in the bin ^^"

who was i kidding ?! i love anime too much to stop! u_u
my DA account is officially 'meaningless' again XD...for nw...

aargh freaking heck i had no idea that you had to CLICK and DELETE and give a REASON for every single damned deviation u wana get rid of if you wana leave DA??!!! thats jst painful...
neways, yeah i've decided to get rid of all my shallow art on this thing...i call it shallow because i just feel like i've outgrown all the stuff i produced and it really is just ...rubbish, it has no concept to it at all...in my opinion- and i guess my opinion counts most so ha ^^
but yeah, as soon as i feel like any of my art is worth people spending time pondering over, i might just put it on here- but for now, only my poems remain...*cuz theyr not saved on Word u_u*

take care now anyone hus bored enough to read this XD
ttfn!
x

yeah so...don't watch pirates of the carribean 3 ...if u want to not ruin the perfected image on an ending you may have conjured up for yourself- seriously...do NOT watch it, u probably thought up of a better ending than all the useless unimaginative disney lot put together (i know i did)
the only perk of the whole movie was that you got to see jack sparrow topless...and even then he was kinda flabby...
ps soni chan im sorry i didnt end up goin with u to see it in the end u_u i didnt even know my sister booked tickets for it till like 3hrs before we went!
but anyway- im trying 2 save your money here people...DONT MAKE MY MISTAKE! its such a crap ending...even the actors lost the plot- its not even an 'ending'...its jst....CRAP!
ok rant over ^^
and kira knightleys a slaag ¬¬ she kissed like 20 ppl in this one! ARGH! (hate hate hate)

aaargh study leave in like 4 days- FINALLY!!!!
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no more school ever ever- omg, im like never gonna see these peoples faces again...hmm, i think im kinda happy, you get sick of em after a while...and i think i really just have had enough of herschel now, and am totally ready to say sayonara suckers ^_^
-sigh- but i guess i could do with seeing a FEW faces round every now and again... i'll probz miss the baylis lot more than herschel! (yes, ur gang tani XD)

oh and ps- never try scheming against Curry's insurance policies ¬¬ dammit, i thought i could get a brand new ipod by breaking my old one and claiming on the stupid guarantee...i gues i really must suck at lying cuz they just didnt buy it! and now my ipods broken u_u
ah wel good thing i broke it juuuust 3 days before my birthday